The Journey

      As my family gathered during the day coming and going I could see that it was ripping all of us in a way that nothing else had ever done.  Later that day the doctors came in for an evaluation of the situation.  Although I was not there at the time went home to rest a bit before going back up again for the evening, my sister called and said the doctors were not holding much hope for her and they were pretty much writing her off.  I began to cry and say why, they gave us no hope.  What were we going to do next?  There were still signs of life her heart was still beating on it's own and she was showing little signs of stabilizing but not enough for the doctors they were pretty infatic about the prognosis and that was very hard to take.  We had to make some decisions and we had to turn to our faith to do it.  The next day there were some very positive signs early her blood pressure was stable she was showing signs of responding mom was continuing to fight and we were hopeful again, but as the day progressed she was showing signs of deterioration of her progress once again the blood pressure then she was having more difficulties internal bleeding was occurring and that was not good at all.  When we left her that night we were hoping that it would change around by morning but alas that would not happen.  We received that call early that Saturday morning it was snowy and icy outside about 4:30am they said we had better get to the hospital she was dying and did not know how long she would hold on.  That had to had been the longest drive to the hospital, my family again was gathered in her room looking at her laying there almost lifeless just reminded me at how much we take people in our lives for granted and that we never think something like this would happen to someone we hold dear to us.  We were told a decision needed to be made and soon because there was nothing more they could do she would probably never come out of her coma and she was bleeding internally and it was not stopping she was suffering.  My dad had to make that decision with our help as that Saturday dragged on and the fact we were tired we came to a decision that was one of the hardest we had ever made we decided to take her off of the artificial things that were keeping her alive, we were going to do that Sunday morning after a Cardiologist paid a visit along with a Neurologist to see if their was brain activity.  Sunday morning we gathered with the doctors the diagnosis was brain had ceased to show any activity probably stopped somewhere between Friday and Saturday and her heart although beating strong and showing no signs of letting go any time soon however with everything else occurring she was gone from us she would had been in a coma for the rest of her days had she remained on the machines so immediately by 10:30am that Sunday morning February 28,2010 the papers were signed and we were having her taken off the machines except the feeding tube.  She was taken off life support at approx 11:20am and her death was called by 11:30am she passed into eternal life,  I held her hand the whole entire time and it was the most beautiful experience to be there when someone passes I felt her spirit  leave the energy in her hands and knew the exact minute before it was pronounced that she was gone from us I said I will see you again mom and I did love you so much more then you knew.  I will miss you the rest of the days of my life.