After the passing of my dear aunt during the holidays, my dad decided to make the trip to Indiana by himself not what we wanted to hear because after all it is Michigan and it is the winter. We had to rely on our faith that he would be able to travel safely to his destination and safely back home. In the next two days after he left and the house again was empty. I had lots of fun things planned for this holiday some of which I wanted to bow out of, but I did not and was happy that I didn't because I was having so much fun with my friends that in some parts of my mind I felt a little guilty, however I got this overwhelming feeling that it was suppose to be this way, I can not begin to share that it was just what I needed to help me round out this tremulous year. My dad was home the day before this year was going to end and he was as happy as myself to see it end and to begin anew.
As 2010 drew to a close, I began to reflect on what had happened it had started out quiet with anticipation of great things that were suppose to happen except it turned into a very trying and taxing and a year full of so many tragic things to hit our lives in a way we never thought would happen for us. It was a year of great losses and little gain except that when all was said and done it drew us closer as a family something that had not been there or was but taken for granted and not given much thought. The relationship with my two sisters was always close but we have grown closer. The relationship with my father had always been strained but I believe it has grown stronger and we are bonding closer. Sometimes when someone close to you dies it leaves a void in your heart you can either succumb to the loss and never open your heart again or you can try to draw closer those who share the same loss as you to help you get through it and that is what I did with my faith in God much stronger.
The year was a test a test of our wills, a test of our strengths and a test of our weaknesses. We were just then beginning to start to accept the things that had happened and move forward.
The year was over we breath a sigh of relief and it was time to move on. January flew by and February was here it will be a year since my mother passed hard to believe it was already here one year. About two weeks before the anniversary we planned on all being together for the day. We would go to mass as a family, go to the cemetery, then all sit and have dinner together the plans were made.
My dad decided before the anniversary that there was something else missing that is when he decided we needed new life into our family so he got a puppy for us to focus on. We named him Frankie after my mother he has brought so much love into this empty home and has given all of us a new focus what a little joy he has been and he has been a healer. When I am feeling blue he is there to comfort me and to keep me entertained and active. He has also helped me to make promises to myself to stay healthy I made a big decision and a promise to do just that.
